Note – I’ll go ahead and say, this post is ALL over the place – just bear with me.
I’m sitting here, watching my three little ones playing blocks, and wondering, “Where did the time go?”. I can remember so clearly when each of them was a newborn baby, then how each one accepted their new baby sibling.
And now, here we are, about to welcome yet another baby to our family. I’m somewhat sad that ‘my baby’ won’t be ‘my baby’ anymore. I’ll quickly admit to babying him more than I did the other two. I’m not sure if it was due to having a miscarriage before him, or just that I was in the midst of a lot of stress – and clinging to him helped calm me.
Either way, I don’t regret doing things a little different with him. He was our first to sleep regularly in our bed. Mainly because his reflux was so bad, I was afraid I wouldn’t hear him choking in his own bed – and I’d often have to grab him up quickly to help him breathe clearly. That is, when I wasn’t having to hold him asleep upright on the couch – simply so the pain wouldn’t cause him to scream.
I know this time go round things that I can do to prevent this. I’m no longer on cow’s milk, so the switch to goat’s milk isn’t a problem. I DO consume a lot of cheese again, so this will take some adjusting to – pizza, lasagna, ice cream, chicken alfredo….
I’m hoping that I’ll start to work up a taste for some red meat again – to give a little variety to our diet. We used to find some great deals on steaks and roasts – and these would usually allow for leftover meals.
I’ve really been taking it much easier the past few days, more because I’m exhausted than anything else. Contractions, plus having to potty every 1.5 hours, all through the night doesn’t allow for much sleep. So, I’m closing my eyes here and there throughout the morning PLUS taking an afternoon nap. It’s almost like the 1st trimester all over again – ha!! But as soon as I can get the younger two asleep, I’m out too!
It’s almost bittersweet rocking my ‘baby’ to sleep now. I’ve so enjoyed this one on one time with him. I decided with my first that I wasn’t going to allow some book tell me how bad it would be to rock my baby to sleep. Since we are never guaranteed another breath, I decided then to enjoy each moment that God gave me with my babies.
Yes, it did make for some difficult sleep times here and there, but it doesn’t come close to the wonderful closeness I felt holding my babies close, listening to the gentle rhythm of them breathing.
I realize that my time with the ‘baby’ is nearing the end. Each ‘baby’ has somehow grown up overnight with each new arrival. I don’t necessarily want them to, they just do. They even look older! How sweet it was to rock him to sleep today, then hold him an extra 10 to 15 minutes. He’s so pitiful right now, as he caught a really bad cold last week.
Yesterday was really bad for the little guy, who will be 20 months this week. He can’t breathe – AT ALL – and kept pointing to his nose and making the most pitiful “nose” sound and pointing to it. Then he’d try his hardest to get air moving through there…
The rest of us are on garlic pills, trying to get better before the baby. Yep, I’ve even come down with a touch of it, even flirting with a sore throat. We’ve avoided the outdoors for the most part the past few weeks, since the pollen here in the South has been really bad lately.
Oh, on another note, DD keeps asking if it’s still April – afraid it’s come and gone and we’ve missed the baby coming. She really is bothered about this when she asks each day!
She was apparently coughing Saturday morning at breakfast, at least that’s what she told me. I’d told them to keep their hands away from their noses and mouths, that they couldn’t hold the baby if they were sick. Well, that must’ve been in her mind, because she told me she was coughing (as seriously as she could), but “I still want to see the baby” (as sweetly as she could).
Oh, they are amazing, and I’m so glad that we have trusted the Lord to plan our family – for EACH member is such a blessing! The older two are inseparatable (is that spelled right?), and I’m hoping this baby will become great buddies with our ‘baby’, or at least give him one sibling to play with.
At the moment, he’s always breaking and tearing up what the older two try to do, so he’s left out a good bit. He doesn’t seem to mind most of the time, for often he can be found playing quietly and contently in a room all by himself. It’s kinda sad, but then I think that it’s probably good that he can occupy himself, so I let him play. (This being the child that we thought would NEVER do anything by themself!)
I wonder, how will life change over the next week or two? Quite a bit I’m sure – but in what ways I have no clue. We’ve been pretty relaxed, taking each moment and day as it comes, so I don’t think things will be rocked up too much.
I plan on continuing what I’ve done for years – taking the phone off the hook while we nap ( I need those naps too! ), and putting a sign on the door that we’re napping (the mailman or UPS has woke me up WAY too many times!). While we don’t stick to a strict schedule, we do plan visitors and trips around the baby just a little.
For me, I’ve learned it’s easier to stick with what we are used to, then mess it up and have fussy children and a fussy momma the next couple of days. Some might adjust well to adding flexibility for the sake of others (family/ friends), but honestly – I don’t.
I’ve had to realize it’s not the end of the world if I’m different than someone else might be – we have to do what works for us. FYI new moms – you do need to pay attention to this somewhat…. stress will REALLY affect your milk supply. I would dry up completely with our first when I was under a lot of stress. DH was great about it, realizing that I couldn’t help it, and was as helpful as he could be (even though it meant people getting upset with him at times).
Just remember, YOU’VE just had a baby – for once, rest and take care of yourself. It will speed your recovery, and make those first few days/ weeks much more enjoyable!
Any thoughts from other veteran moms out there?
“Little Mommy”