I just couldn’t let the opportunity to share this with an unknowing female out there…. Do you know how the birth control pill really works? I first began hearing about this years ago, and now it’s really beginning to come up more (thankfully!).

Forget the fact that the pill can cause your blood to clot and kill you or cause liver damage, and see birth control for what it really is.

It is controlling your own life, your own future, your own plans. It’s not allowing God to decide and plan according to HIS plans, but you being “The Boss” of your body.

How can we live by ‘trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding’ if we aren’t trusting Him with our family size and we’re leaning on our own reasoning to decide just how large our family will be?

For those that are still in need of further convincing, think about the 10 Commandments - more specifically the 6th one, “Thou shalt not kill”. With that in your mind and heart, watch the video at the link below to learn what you might have never heard before, because your OB/ GYN won’t be telling you this…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aoIN7LcMANM

Well, it’s 9:28 PM on April 10th, 2009, and I’m pretty confident at this point that the baby will NOT come on it’s due date!

The end of each pregnancy leaves me torn, because I really do love being pregnant. There’s nothing to describe how wonderful and close you feel to your baby during pregnancy. It’s the only time in the world that it’s really just you and them. No one else can share in this, it’s a special bond - a gift of motherhood that is such a blessing!

I love feeling all the movements and trying to figure out which body part it is that is playing with me. I love the feel of hiccups in my belly. This baby hasn’t given me too much of either, at least not comparable to my other children. But still, I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the ‘play’ times we have had.

I love the rounded belly, the funny walk, the smiles you get from others when they notice your belly. I love having my children and husband being able to feel the kicks and hiccups too, and listen to the heartbeat.

I love knowing that God has created a wonderful gift - He has blessed our marriage with something that can’t be compared to. Here is a gift, from our obedience to ‘be fruitful and multiply’, part of me and part of my husband.

I love the mystery of not knowing if it’s a boy or girl. I love the anticipation of seeing it in those first moments - holding it close, calming it’s cries, holding those tiny little fingers! I love it all!

I really thought I was in labor Wednesday night/ Thursday morning - and that we would have a baby by 7:30 AM. (Don’t ask why I picked that time…)

We got to bed around 11, but it was 1 AM before I was able to fall asleep - even in my exhausted state (and knowing I had an OB appt. the next morning). My heart seemed to be racing, but I really wasn’t having any contractions.

2:30 AM - Awake again. This time I WAS having contractions. They were very strong, and every 10 to 15 minutes. I laid in bed until 3:40, at which point I was really thinking that Thursday was ‘the day’. I kept telling myself to let them get closer together, at least 8 minutes, and then get up and shower.

That never happened, and I was getting more and more frustrated at my 1.5 hours of sleep so far into the night. So I gave up on the bed and moved to the couch. Around 4 I finally fell asleep again, with only occassional contractions.

I woke up at 6, hearing DH in the bathroom getting ready for work. Okay, so now I had 3.5 hours of sleep, better than before. Our youngest (20 months now) woke up at 6:36, when DH left, but when I went to get him up, he was back asleep. So I managed to get back in my own bed for about 45 more minutes of sleep before the baby woke up again for good.

Yeah, 4. 5 hours of sleep +/- isn’t so good for a very pregnant momma. Not to mention that now the contractions had stopped completely! I was so disappointed. Maybe it was all just the excitement of showing our house Wed. afternoon… or all the cleaning I had to do! Thankfully, DH is the best, and surprised me Wed. by coming home an hour early to help me finish cleaning! I couldn’t have done it had he not helped (since we have 3 little ones that do the OPPOSITE of helping sometimes).

At my visit Thursday, she told me I was close to 3.5 cm now, still not effacing much. Of course, she had to throw in the whole induction thing… I’ve learned by this point that this is NOT the way to go unless there’s a medical necessity.

Those sonograms aren’t 100% accurate on a due date. God knows when the baby is ready! There’s apparently some reason that He still has it ‘perkin’. Plus, I’ve been okay with it all week, since all 3 children seemed to have caught some really bad cold last week - very icky noses and coughs! I really wanted to get everyone healthy and well, so they could all see and hold the baby.

Part of me does question if the mag they put me on at 33 weeks does indeed slow down going into labor. An OB with my 1st child told me that, but then the nurses this go round said that NO it didn’t. Either way, I’m not interested in pumping modern day drugs into my body or my baby’s!

I’ve been amazed at how little research is actually done on modern day medicines, by doctors that is. Twice in this pregnancy they have prescribed me meds that are NOT even tested on pregnant women because of the risks! But not one dr. told me there were risks at all! The first time, as you might recall, the pharmacist warned me.

The second time, with the kidney stone, I had wised up to this group, and questioned the pharmacist before we even went to pick it up. Both times, it was a matter of risk vs. benefit - but the docs never gave me the option of making that decision.

I highly recommend doing your own Google searches, you’ll find out all kinds of information CONTRADICTING taking a lot of the things docs and nurses try to force on you. I am pretty much convinced that drs. today only care about getting as many people in and out as quickly as they can, and making the most money that they can.

Drug companies giving them money to promote their medicines. Inductions bringing in more money than normal labors. Then when inductions get stalled because the mom or baby one isn’t really ready - they have to add in more procedures = more risks, more threat to mom and baby, higher chance of intervention via forceps, suction, or c-section = more money!

Yep, drs. are SO out of the world they should be in. I really felt as if my OB was telling me the other day that I was putting her out if I even hinted at her delivering me, should she not be on call one weekend. That wasn’t what I was asking her, but she went on for probably 5 minutes about her life and family.

I was simply asking how I could have my records sent to another hospital, should a dr. be on call that I didn’t like. Simple question in my opinion.

I DO understand where she’s coming from, I don’t like DH working weekend rotations at all! But in her field, I believe being there for a patient that has trusted you to take care of her and baby just comes with the job. If an OB can’t handle it, they have either too many patients, or they are in the wrong field.

I so wish we weren’t in Alabama, where midwives and birthing centers aren’t legalized. I would love to have a home birth, and still haven’t ruled it out this time. We have a swimming pool we can blow up in the living room! If it wasn’t for the known genetic heart problem each child faces, I wouldn’t hesitate - at all.

But on that note, my OB told me that heart problems aren’t usually heard in the first few days anyway. That’s why you go back to the pediatrician within days of coming home. Hmm… she didn’t know that was my main reason for the hospital… There still would be the chance of a completely blocked valve, or almost closed, that would be noticed and require emergency surgery.

Well, the weekend is now officially here, so I’m hoping the Lord has just been holding off to allow DH to be home when labor starts, and family to be off to help with the children. I’m really hoping it’ll be a Resurrection Sunday baby!

The only OB in the group I really like is on call this weekend. He’s the one that said I could labor on my head - ha!! He’s on call til Monday at 7 AM, then he’s out the rest of the week. We’ll see - keep us in your prayers, and unless it’s still not here by the end of the week, you won’t see any posts. I’ll be focusing my attention elsewhere the next few days, but will still be popping in on Facebook (Mrs. Candace). If I DO have the baby, that’ll be where you’ll hear it first anyway.

Praying you have a blessed Resurrection Sunday!

“Little Mommy”

PS - Thank you to those that have taken the time to comment and/ or send an email, I’ve loved hearing from you and have really appreciated it! In case I don’t have it available on here, my email is Candace @ Sonbeams.com or Candace @ HeavenInOurHomes.com - both without spaces.

I’d be happy to reply with updates for those wanting to know ‘what’s going on??”

It’s finally hit me, I’m pregnant, really pregnant, and I’m loving it! God was so wonderful to bestow such a blessing on women - to hold such a precious creation of God’s in our beings, to give it birth, then to love and raise it!!

Sure, pregnancy has it’s ups and downs, but what can compare to knowing there’s a living soul that God created, that He blessed you and your husband with inside of you! Yes, it’s my most wonderful time…. so why all the negativity, scornful looks, and rude comments from others? Can’t they see I’m happy, don’t they know it’s not their business (no more than it is mine to ask why they AREN’T having children - is something wrong with one of them?? No, that’s rude and inconsiderate!)

I’ve heard some mothers lay it out plainly - “Well, which child should I refuse, which one should I send back, which one should I not love?” In essence, these people commenting are telling me that I have a mistake inside of me, it was a wrong decision, I shouldn’t have it - is this not true?

I am amused hearing people say “We’re not in the same time as then, we don’t need children to help on the farm….” or “But God gives us common sense”.

It’s true we’re not in the same time, and not needing lots of children to help on the farm in order to survive, BUT that’s not why we have children in the first place - did people forget about that? We have them because we’re being submissive to the Lord and His will, and His command. He commanded in Genesis to multiply and replenish the Earth - not only to Adam and Eve, but to Noah’s family as they exited the ark.

Sure it was thousands of years ago when He gave that command, but isn’t His Word true and the same yesterday, today, and forever!?!

Our first child received lots of attention, people pleased we had a baby - and so cute at that too! Our second again received hearty congratulations - along with the notion we were done since we had a boy and a girl (perfect, huh?)

Our third began to raise a few eyebrows - especially since he made 3 children, 3 years and under. Not quite as many congratulations…..

So now, number 4 - well, there’s a few congratulations - real, honest ones that is. These mainly from large families that see children as a blessing, not a hinderance or curse.

There’s those that think we’ll for sure be done now - especially if it’s a girl. As they say “Two boys and two girls - that’ll be perfect!” Three might not be THEIR first choice for OUR family size, but if it evens out - it’ll be fine and done with.

And then to be honest, there’s just certain people I dread seeing. You know, the ones that HAVE to put in their two cents, and it’s never congratulations - rather it’s rude, distasteful, nosy comments or questions. They aren’t even shy about it, coming right out with whatever hits their minds! The sad part being is that most of these are ‘Christians’.

I feel I’ve been asked a million times - “Don’t you know what causes that?”, or receive the hanging head shake and “oh-no’s, what are we going to do with you” comments.

I’ve had to turn to the Lord, and He’s shown me to respond with Scripture! Proverbs 3:5-6 says to trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path.

Hmm…. Let’s look at that verse - Trust in the Lord. So how are people trusting Him when they use birth ‘CONTROL’?? Sounds like they’re not too trusting if they must control it themselves. Yes, trust with ALL your heart.

Okay, next - Lean not unto your own understanding. This is my response to people saying that God gives us wisdom and common sense. Well, He gives us a mind to think, but does that mean that our minds are filled with His wisdom and knowledge? No, our minds and hearts are sinful. On their own, they aren’t going to automatically obey God’s will and callings.

He gives us a mind, just as he gives us a will - we have to choose whether we’ll obey Him with those, or choose to sin. Just as He isn’t going to make us love Him and be saved, He isn’t going to make us obey Him. It’s when we love and trust Him that we obey.

Last - In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. What did that say? In ALL your ways, not every way but family size! He will direct that according to His will. You can’t allow Him to direct and then be a backseat driver.

Then there’s also the Scripture verse - For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future?

God knows His plans! Who I am to question if He’s right or not? His Word is a promise, and here He says His plans will prosper us, not harm us - and will give us a hope and a future.

Imagine how wonderfully different our nation would be today if Christians had been heeding the Lord in this area - Christians would be our hope, our future - not our minority. I believe we wouldn’t see the despair we see today if Christians filled our land.

But instead, Christians have taken control of their family size, while other religions still flourish - and are now overtaking us.

All through the Old Testament, you read of stories where God closed wombs or He opened them. Do people not believe He does the same thing today? If He doesn’t will for you to have more children, He is more than able to close your womb! That just goes back to lack of trust in Him - sorry to be blunt, but it’s true.

One particular fella, feels he has to comment each time he sees me. Most of the above mentioned points came up, and I confronted them with God’s Word. Finally, what ended it was my telling him that if He could show me in God’s Word where God changed His mind and told husbands and wives NOT to reproduce - then I might consider it.

He was shocked, but in the end knew there was nothing else he could say - because God is faithful, true, and unchanging! It’s not that I’m not scared at times about having many more children - it is a big task - but I trust more in my God.

I fear more my defiant attitude and taking ‘control’ of my body - what HIS consequences and judgement will be. I know this is what He has said, and I choose to submit my life, my body, and my service to His plans for my children and family size - how could I choose otherwise and be faithful to Him?

Yes, I’m glorying in my role of motherhood, and can’t wait to meet and hold this newest life that the Lord has created FOR A PURPOSE! I’m grateful that God has given me a husband that is also willing to submit to the Lord in this area.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. So yes, God does give us a mind and a choice - but fearing/ reverencing/ acknowledging Him and His will is the beginning of this wisdom.

Be ye not wise in your own eyes!

To end, to my dearest precious baby - I love you with all of my heart and am very grateful that you are a part of me, of your father, of our family - created by God especially for us. He has a plan and a purpose for you, else He would not have created you. I pray that you will know, love, and serve Him - your Creator - all the days of your life.

Little Mommy