Wow, it’s hard to believe the end is so near! To be honest, it seems like things have flown by now, although looking back, the worries of miscarriage at the very beginning seem so far away.

It’s getting hard to contain my excitement - I want to hold her close for as long as I can, looking over every detail of this life and soul God has entrusted to our family. But the end still seems so far away… it just doesn’t seem right that she’s supposed to be here next week.

We have the induction set up in just a few more days, and part of me doesn’t feel right about it. I’m very tempted to call and cancel it. I understand the logic of having the other children taken care of, and being sure we arrive at the hospital in time for help if it’s needed. But is this not human thinking, is it not the understanding of men? (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I want her to come on the birthday God chooses for her, not me – and the verse about waiting on the Lord keeps coming to mind. It seems part of the experience will be lost thanks to modern medicine, whereas if I waited, there’d be a little bit more of a story to tell over the years. This might not make sense, and I won’t love her any less, I just have a feeling I’m making God’s decision for Him and don’t feel at peace with it.

We’ll be praying about it for sure and trust that HE gives us direction – or better yet, that He allows me to go in labor before the induction starts!

About the 39 week mark – I forgot to weigh yesterday, but today weighed in at 148.5 lbs., for a total weight gain of 26.5 lbs. I spent the day cutting DS1′s hair, as well as chopping off a couple inches of my own hair. Hubby seemed to be in favor of cutting vs. trimming, which I do like, I just didn’t realize how much harder it would be to cut it shorter and keep it even.

(i.e. – If you see me, don’t look to closely at the ends of my hair… they just might not be even. ;P)

I’ll try to come back later and post pics DH took of me at 39 weeks. We had a sweet little guy decide he wanted in the pictures with Mommy and baby, so there might be one or two of those as well.

Little Mommy