I’m not even sure where to begin writing today, as I’ve just left a friends blog, sharing of someone that just lost her baby boy at 30 weeks this past Tuesday. From Kelly’s blog, I visited this mom’s blog, and was having to fight the tears….
Here’s a mom that has now lost 4 precious lives, all unrelated. She has 4 other children (I believe) and 1 adopted son, and a husband with which she can cry.
To be honest, part of me is outraged, thinking about comments that some people are probably saying – that she should be happy, she has plenty already. Obviously NOT from someone that has lost a child.
I have been there, I lost a precious child that was almost 7 weeks old. And with tears in my eyes and reminded of my once broken heart, I can say that this IS your child from the moment you first “KNOW” you are pregnant!
Sorry to vent, but I am so angered right now with our twisted world!! How we live in a time that only values the life of the first born – maybe the second – and the third is pushing it for many (we’ve heard the comments about our 2nd and 3rd, and yes, sometimes they can hurt).
Here we are, a people that selfishly wants all we can get (blessings), but when it comes to what GOD says is a blessing – we count it (babies) as a curse. Am I wrong, at least for the majority of the population?
Read that again – children are a BLESSING from the Lord – He has told us so. A blessing, not a curse. So why is it that people raise their eyebrows if you have more than 2? Why does our world make them (and us as parents) that they are a curse – that they aren’t wanted.
I was thinking in the shower today, how sad it is that there ARE some that will have compassion for this family. But what about different circumstances? What if this was someone having an abortion. Those same people wouldn’t shed a tear for that baby’s short life.
“But this family WANTED their baby”, I can hear people say. Wow – that really got to me as I played out the story in my head.
Isn’t it sad that there are people that actually don’t WANT their babies? They are so selfish and thinking of themselves, that they don’t realize what they are saying. They don’t want a precious life to love and hold, they don’t want a BLESSING from God! How much they are missing!!
And from there, I have to say it – isn’t the church doing the same thing with birth control? Is this really an unconscious way of saying they don’t “want” God’s blessing, they don’t “want” another life to love?
And then, when they find themselves pregnant, they refer to their children as an accident, an ‘Oops!’. Oh, my mommy heart is breaking…. 
Alright, this isn’t what this blog is supposed to be about (my venting), but this is just what came out as I sat here in tears for this family’s pain.
Please keep them in your prayers, this mother especially. I can’t imagine the pain she feels – she has felt this baby, has known this baby for months and months. She was only 2 months away from looking into his precious eyes….
She needs your prayers – God is the only One that can hold her right now, giving her the comfort she needs. Pray for this father, as he too feels the pain of their loss, but also has to comfort his wife – wiping her tears…
While the ‘Daddy’ doesn’t verbalize his pain the same as his wife needs to, he feels it. I can still see the pain and hurt in my husband’s eyes when we lost our little one in 2006.
Pray for the siblings, they were so looking forward to their new baby brother. I can’t imagine how I would tell my children if something went wrong with our baby. They would be so crushed, so full of questions that would be painful to talk about – but good to talk about.
And now, can I be selfish? I’d love to have prayers for myself! Our last baby was born with the cord around his neck (this is what happened to this baby), plus our son had a knot in his cord – he wouldn’t have survived another week I don’t believe if the doctor hadn’t insisted on induction a week early.
While I haven’t had ANY concerns or fears this time like I did with him (I knew in my being that something wasn’t right), after hearing this story, my mind now wanders places it shouldn’t.
I KNOW God is in control – He holds life and death – yet the thought of facing death again in a child is very real and very scary. I ask for prayers that God would give me peace knowing that HE is watching over me and this little one in the next two weeks.
Thank you – and I’ll post a more uplifting update later today for my 38 week mark -
“Little Mommy”
How neat to think this little one could be here anytime now!
